It was a rainy day, and I lied in bed listening to the rain drops hit the roof and roll off into puddles on the ground. I distinctly remember being bored, being tired, being sick, and having my thoughts run wild. They often did during this time of my life. It was a period of transition, and any changes that occur in my life cause chaos and turmoil, because let’s face it…I am not good with change; I never was and I still struggle with transitions. It is something that I am continuously working on, to better deal with change. Because to be frank, change happens ALL of THE TIME. I need to get okay with things not staying the same, because very little in this life DOES stay the same. So on that dismal day where I felt too ill to move from my bed, I had a thought. What if I had a space to get all of my thoughts out? A space that I could call my own and collect all my writings? Better yet, what if this space could not only serve as an outlet for me, but serve as an outlet or a safe space for others to come, as well? A place where I could be vulnerable in my thoughts and feelings and give and receive support from others going through similar situations.
And THAT, my friends, is how this little blog emerged. This was almost two years ago. How the time flies! Starting out from the very beginning, my blog being nothing more than a planted seed. I watered it, hoping it would grow. I am pleased today with all of the progress this little blog of mine has made. I am so grateful for all the follows and the likes and the support that I have received. My blog has been growing and blossoming, and I think I am ready for the next step. Although I am satisfied with what I have done with this blog thus far, I have a yearning to grow it even further. I want to continue to see it blossom and thrive. More importantly, I want to continue to reach out to others through my writing. That is the main reason for wanting this blog to grow even more, so that I can help others. So that I can provide some inspiration or a glimmer of hope to anyone who may need it. I am far from perfect in my recovery from my eating disorder. But I am farther along than I ever have been, and I am FINALLY in a place where I feel stable and solid enough to reach out and provide some support and words of encouragement to others. I am far from perfect in my recovery from my chronic illnesses. I still struggle with remembering to take all my medication, and I still experience a lot of symptoms that can cause crippling fatigue. But again, I am in a better place than I was a little over two years ago lying in a hospital bed. I am far from perfect in my recovery from anxiety, depression, and OCD, but I continue to reach out to my own supports and get the help that I need. I am farther along in my journey than when I started this blog a couple of years ago, and I am ready to see it improve and just get bigger and better. Not for me, but for others. Yes, it is an outlet for me, too. Blogging helps me. It serves as a wonderful outlet to sift through and sort out my thoughts. But if it didn’t do anything for others, would it be worth it? If I did not have so many wonderful followers already, would it be the same? I don’t really know how much this blog has helped anyone, if at all. I can only hope that it has and continue to write about what inspires ME. And maybe, just maybe, it will resonate with you too.
In my hopes to expand and grow this blog, I created a FB page. Please like it! Any likes and follows are so appreciated! And I don’t have nearly as many followers as many bloggers out there, but I wanted to thank all of the followers that I do have! This blog has been a saving grace for me, and I hope that it can help some of you too! My FB page is a place to get some daily inspiration and to read any of my latest blog posts. SO, you can follow it at Bear Beating Gravity. Also, if you go to my about page, you can find all the links to my social medias, OR, go to the bottom of my site and click on the links there. My new twitter account is bearbeingbrave so feel free to follow me there, too!
Have a good day loves!