Hello loves! I hope everyone had a good weekend. I know I did! Since summer is winding down and coming to an end, I thought I would give a recap of my favorite moments this summer. I start school next week, and my orientation for my Master’s program is this Thursday. It is so crazy how this summer just flew by. I also did some journaling this morning from my prompt journal, and I want to share my thoughts with you all and talk a little bit about what excites me about the possibility of a new day. So, let’s get started!
Fourth of July
The fourth of July was a blast. My family was in town from Florida, and we watched Fireworks and had a bonfire with sparklers and sky lanterns.
Helicopter ride and Whirlpool Jet Boats
My boyfriend and I had a day of fun earlier this summer. We took a ride on the whirlpool jet boats that go into class 5 rapids. It was so much fun! We got soaked – literally. It felt like buckets of water were just constantly being dumped on us. So worth it though! After that, I took my first ever helicopter ride over Niagara Falls! It was incredible! I was really nervous at first, but again, so worth it!
My Big Doctor’s Appointment
Back in June, I had a muscle biopsy done to see if we could find the cause for all of the health issues that I have been experiencing. I was extremely nervous for my appointment and to find out the results. Honestly, I was not expecting them to find anything because I did not want to get my hopes up just to be disappointed. However, the doctor did find something. It turns out that I have a rare metabolic disease that explains my fatigue and low energy. You are probably wondering why this is even on this list…I mean, how could this be a good thing? Well, when I received this diagnosis, I was relieved. Finally, we can pin point the cause for my POTS and Dysautonomia, and why all of this started happening to me. We can now treat the underlying cause, and my doctor was hopeful that I will eventually feel better. It isn’t always easy. I probably cried at least 5 times over the fact that I have this disease and how hard it is to live each day feeling ill, but I’m grateful too. Grateful that I have this diagnosis and grateful that we discovered it. If I never had this muscle biopsy done, who knows if I would ever feel better. At least now I have a chance!
Starting A New Job
I recently just started a new job at a local hospital. This is kind of a big deal, because I have not been able to work in over a year. I am ready to get back into it though, and this job is perfect for me! Reason being is that I am not on my feet all day, and I get to utilize what I have learned in school and apply it to real life!
My Vacation to The Thousand Islands
I just returned a couple days ago from the Thousand Islands. My boyfriend and I took a trip there for a couple days for my graduation while I have ten days off between my last undergrad course and my first Master’s course. It felt so good to be back there! Growing up, my family and I would take vacations there every summer. It is so beautiful and peaceful. We went swimming, visited Boldt Castle, took a boat tour, and just enjoyed our time. I miss it already and wish the trip could have lasted a little longer, but I’m so thankful we were able to go there!
Last night we had a family party/dinner at my house. It was me, my cousin and his wife, my sisters, my boyfriend, my aunt, and my parents. We decided to have a big dinner to celebrate my graduation and my sister leaving for college. It was so much fun. I enjoyed some wine and good food, sat by the bonfire, ate s’mores, and took pictures with everyone I love! We even went for a night swim in the river. It was so nice to have everyone together and just enjoy each others company. I miss it already!
There was a lot of good that happened this summer, and I am sad to see it come to an end. However, I am looking forward to starting my Master’s program and for all of the new adventures still to come.
So, what excites me about the possibility of a new day? Having the opportunity to live life to the fullest. Every day is a gift, and even though some days are harder than others and things just don’t seem to be going our way, we need to be able to find the good in each day and just be thankful for the day because we are alive and here. I used to dread each and every day. There were times where I wished that I wasn’t even alive. Now, I realize that life isn’t supposed to feared, or dreaded. We are here to love and be loved, to live our lives to the fullest, to create memories and partake in different experiences. We are here to learn, to grow, and to flourish. There are still times where I fear parts of life, where I break down and cry because I’m scared of the future, of my own thoughts, or of the unknown. That is all part of having an anxiety disorder. Even if you don’t have an anxiety disorder, we will all experience fear and sadness in life; we cannot avoid these feelings because they are inevitable. What I am learning to do, though, is to embrace those feelings when they occur. The negative feelings are also a part of life, and I want to try to accept every little bit of what life has to offer. I am excited for what life will bring each day. I am excited to learn something new, to spend time with the people who I love. I am so thankful for my support system. It makes life a heck of a lot more fun and enjoyable when you spend time with the people who you love. My family dinner the other night was one of those times that made me realize how good it is to be alive. It is those moments that keep me going and help me to remember why we are here.
Tell Me: what excites you about the possibility of a new day?