Hello! Happy Thanksgiving to all of my American friends (and whoever else may be celebrating the holiday)! Yesterday I made a post listing all of the things that I am thankful for this year. However, since it IS Thanksgiving today, I thought it was only appropriate to make a short blog post. I have never done a Thursday Thinking Out Loud post before, so I figured I would give it a go!
This morning my sister’s and I woke up at 9 am and watched the Macy’s Thanksgiving Day parade like we do every year. I missed it last year, so this year was extra special. I loved seeing Rachel Platten sing “Stand By You!” That song is so inspirational! For breakfast we had Pillsbury cinnamon rolls and peal meal bacon. I was a little nervous about breakfast, because it is something different than what I am used to having and more of a ‘special’ breakfast, but I ate what I was comfortable with and did not push myself too much. Just having that different breakfast food was enough of a challenge.
I would be lying if I said that I was not worried about the rest of the day and tonight. To be truthful, I really do not want to eat lunch, and I feel like that is a normal thing on Thanksgiving. I guess I look at it from the perspective of I am going to be having a larger than normal dinner, as well as dessert, so why eat mid day? Since I do struggle with an eating disorder, I am not totally sure if this thinking is eating disordered, or normal. It may be a little bit of both, because thinking about all of the food coming up that I will have to eat raises my anxiety. I think this is a high anxiety day for anyone with an eating disorder because we are faced with one of our biggest fears and triggers of all: food.
All of this being said, although this is a holiday surrounding food, it is important to remember that this holiday is not, in fact, ABOUT food. Rather, it is about giving thanks for all of the blessings in our lives. It is about gratitude and giving thanks to God. It is about spending time with family and friends. It is about love.
That is what I wish for all of you on this Thanksgiving day: that it is filled with love and joy and that you are surrounded by those who care about you.