I will probably delete this post, but I just need to vent. I am feeling so huge right now and just having horrible body image. I had left over birthday cake today and I feel like I just keep getting bigger and bigger. I am too exhausted to be anxious; I just feel a little depressed. However, the more I write the more anxious I am starting to feel. We are celebrating my birthday again on Saturday because yesterday I spent most of the day by myself, so I know there will be more cake and that scares me. I really want to not care about all of this; I wish it did not matter to me. I would love to be able to feel good about my body and not like I have to hide in sweatpants. I’m sorry this is such a negative post, but it’s what I’m thinking and feeling and it is truly bothering me.