It’s a Struggle

I will probably delete this post, but I just need to vent. I am feeling so huge right now and just having horrible body image. I had left over birthday cake today and I feel like I just keep getting bigger and bigger. I am too exhausted to be anxious; I just feel a little depressed. However, the more I write the more anxious I am starting to feel. We are celebrating my birthday again on Saturday because yesterday I spent most of the day by myself, so I know there will be more cake and that scares me. I really want to not care about all of this; I wish it did not matter to me. I would love to be able to feel good about my body and not like I have to hide in sweatpants. I’m sorry this is such a negative post, but it’s what I’m thinking and feeling and it is truly bothering me.


Tell Me: Do any of you struggle with these thoughts? If so, I would love to hear how you get yourself through them.Β 

BellaX0

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13 thoughts on “It’s a Struggle

  1. xx sending you hugs and thinking of you xx yes I absolutely know these thoughts and feelings well and they’re so difficult to get through xx sometimes I try to distract myself, sometimes I just remind myself that i’m ok and try and take it moment by moment xxx I hadn’t realised it was your birthday – sending you belated birthday wishes xxx I hope the bad feeling will pass away soon, it will pass, xxx thinking of you too, Em

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  2. I’m so sorry you feel so alone and sad and stuck and numb. I wish I could give you a bigggg hug! Remember to listen to your wise mind, that quiet voice that’s telling you that one or two or three pieces of cake has ZERO effect on your self worth or physical appearance. prove to yourself that those eating disorder thoughts are irrational β™‘

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  3. You’re beautiful. Happy belated birthday πŸ™‚ I completely understand how you feel and kudos to you for writing about it. Don’t feel shameful for writing things that may seem negative to others; it helps people relate and is also a major release for you! Xx

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  4. Sweet Bella,
    Print out a bright red stop sign and look at it when you have irrational thoughts. That was the best advice I got from my anxiety class. The point is that you KNOW they are irrational. That’s the first step. Then tell yourself to STOP thinking them as you look at the stop sign. And everybody gets cake. It’s your birthday celebration, so celebrate YOU!! Love and hugs to you!

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  5. Happy belated birthday to you! I’m so sorry that you’re feeling like this. They are feelings that I am all too familiar with to be honest with you, and they are hard to push through, but please believe me when I say that it is possible to push through these feelings to feel better. The thing I find most helpful is distraction. Do anything and everything that keeps you distracted whether it’s painting or drawing or colouring or painting your nails or listening to music or singing or going for a walk or meeting friends or going to the cinema or watching a DVD – anything that you like to do that can work as a distraction really helps. I hope this helps you! Take care x

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    1. Thank you so much! You are right about distraction. I think that is pretty much all you can do and the best thing you can do. Listening to music and coloring is usually helpful! Thank you so much for your suggestions and support ❀

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  6. I appreciate your honesty – I literally struggle with this daily. Except now I have had to create a list of thoughts to replace my negative ones, so any time something pops up, the contradicting thought as started to come in as well so it’s just chaos in my brain. I just want to shut it all off and I can’t figure out how.

    I really like that advice about the stop sign, I might try that too.

    I hope your birthday celebration went well, and that you were able to enjoy yourself!

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    1. That’s a good idea, to make contradicting thoughts in advance! And thank you so much, it was nice! I still had a lot of negative thoughts pop up, but I tried to use distraction techniques. 😊

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