The Complicated Poem (Trigger Warning! Not postivie except for in the end-working on more positive posts to come)

Stuck in physical and emotional pain

There is fear running through my veins

Making me feel completely insane

Nothing is constant, nothing is stable

I hate this bullshit

I feel completely disabeled

All of the ‘what ifs’ swirl around in my head

“Shut up!” I cry, I wish I was dead

I just want to know that I will be okay

But OCD won’t let an answer stay

I just want to walk, to jump and run free

But something is chasing after me

Dyasautonomia you hold me back

Freedom from pain is something I lack

And I would love to like the way I look

Anorexia, that is what you took

You stole my life and kept me chained

Yet there is something from you that I gained

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2 thoughts on “The Complicated Poem (Trigger Warning! Not postivie except for in the end-working on more positive posts to come)

  1. Here is a quote for you, Bella:

    You are loved just for being who you are, just for existing. You don’t have to do anything to earn it. Your shortcomings, your lack of self-esteem, physical perfection, or social and economic success – none of that matters. No one can take this love away from you, and it will always be here.

    Ram Dass

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