Finding the light through the Dark

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I hit a dark patch last night and am still not in a steady place today. Strong feelings of depression and anxiety just washed over me as I was lying awake in bed until 2 am. I had thoughts of ending my life and not wanting to go on any further. I ended up taking more xanax than prescribed to me because I felt so awful and I just did not want to feel anything. I am still recuperating from that long, dark night, and trying to stay as positive as I can. At 1:30 in the morning I reached out to my mother, scared of what I had done and how I felt. She held me and told me that life is beautiful, that God has a plan for all of us; if I were to end my life-well-I would never know what God has in store for me. You can always find good in a situation. There is always a silver lining, and there will ALWAYS be hard times, but there will be good times, too. We just have to be brave enough and strong enough to make it through those hard times so we can experience the joys of life and the wonderful things it has to offer. We were put on earth to love one another, and every experience that we have on earth happens for a reason-I truly believe that-even the worst of times must happen because that leads to something beautiful: “when it rains, look for rainbows. When it’s dark, look for stars.” Have a good day everyone. Keep fighting and stay strong ❤

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